Monday, August 13, 2012

The Floodlight

This road has been so long and exhausting. It's been eighteen months of crazy with a dash of sane. No matter what has come our way, we have always tried to stay focused on that little dim light at the end of the tunnel. Since I feel like I am responsible for everything for our family, Chaz has to remind me again and again to not sweat the small stuff. I worry about the house in TN, the bills, the kids, their education, Chaz's healing, my sanity, and all the above sometimes all at the same time. I pray everyday for the patience to stay on the path God has laid out for us. Sometimes I ask multiple times a day.

I am a big fan of Joel Osteen. He constantly reminds us that God has great things in store for us. I'll never forget the last Joel book I read before Chaz was hurt. I remember the passage that said that what ever you are dreaming is not big enough, dream bigger because that's what God wants for you. Here's the thing though, I am not a dreamer. Nothing has been handed to me. I have worked hard for everything. I don't know any other path besides hard work. So this dreaming path is uncharted territory for me. I have dreams, but I'll confess I don't focus on them. I focus on hard work to achieve goals.

When you face such an exhaustively hard road of healing, it's so easy to forget that God loves you and wants you to succeed. We have walked in faith during this entire journey. It has not been easy at all. I tell people in our situation there is no easy button, there is only faith. You have to have faith that it will all be worth it. All the pain, exhaustion, tears that you endure in the storm will lead you to that rainbow. You just have to keep going.

I can't go into many details, but I am too excited to not share how incredibly blessed we feel right now. We have been focused on the dim light at the end of the tunnel for so very long. We were just cruising along and last week God hit us with a floodlight. This light was exactly what we needed. The floodlight came with some huge blessings. And I mean HUGE. The blessing is so huge that Chaz and I just didn't know how to react. I have cried once and been on the verge of tears many times. That's how awesome this is.

Unfortunately this floodlight also causes us to make some very important decisions. These decisions will greatly affect our four lives. I know we'll figure it all out. We'll figure out what is the best decision for us. We haven't rushed one decision on this journey since it all began and we won't start rushing now. One thing is for sure God is so great!!!

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  1. I saw an eagle while I was out walking today so had to share this passage. Praying!
    Isaiah 40:28-31 Hast thou not known? hast thou not heard, that the everlasting God, the LORD, the Creator of the ends of the earth, fainteth not, neither is weary? there is no searching of his understanding. He giveth power to the faint; and to them that have no might he increaseth strength. Even the youths shall faint and be weary, and the young men shall utterly fall: But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.
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  2. What comfort these words give! Praying in Seattle!
    Psalms 23:1-6 The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want. He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake. Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the LORD for ever.
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  3. We have an anchor in every storm! Praying!
    Hebrews 6:17-20 Wherein God, willing more abundantly to shew unto the heirs of promise the immutability of his counsel, confirmed it by an oath: That by two immutable things, in which it was impossible for God to lie, we might have a strong consolation, who have fled for refuge to lay hold upon the hope set before us: Which hope we have as an anchor of the soul, both sure and stedfast, and which entereth into that within the veil; Whither the forerunner is for us entered, even Jesus, made an high priest for ever after the order of Melchisedec.
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  4. So many times it can seem like nobody understands...Jesus understands! Praying!
    Hebrews 2:9-10 But we see Jesus, who was made a little lower than the angels for the suffering of death, crowned with glory and honour; that he by the grace of God should taste death for every man. For it became him, for whom are all things, and by whom are all things, in bringing many sons unto glory, to make the captain of their salvation perfect through sufferings.
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  5. Continuing to lift up prayers!
    Psalms 71:1-3 In thee, O LORD, do I put my trust: let me never be put to confusion. Deliver me in thy righteousness, and cause me to escape: incline thine ear unto me, and save me. Be thou my strong habitation, whereunto I may continually resort: thou hast given commandment to save me; for thou art my rock and my fortress.
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  6. I love reading your blog, it is so inspiring! My fiancee was in a motorcycle accident so we have been on a journey of our own, but it is encouraging to read about yours and how you have kept your heads up! thanks!
    Cait

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