Last Sunday was just one of those days. One of those days where you miss what you had. But it was also one of those days where I was reminded of how blessed we truly are.
Chaz was walking around in his legs and then walked up to give me a hug. I couldn't help myself, I cried. I miss standing hugs. I miss just being to have my hubby standing at any time and me snuggle into him. I miss him sneaking up on me to scare me. I miss walking and holding hands. I think you have to take time to acknowledge you miss those things. I think speaking those things helps you take ownership of them and helps you deal with them.
But at this same moment, our sweet oldest child said, "Mom, why are you crying?!" I told her that sometimes things make you so happy that cry sometimes. Then I told her that I miss things and told her standing up and holding Daddy was one of them. So then Deryn and Ryann both began listing what they missed. We had to take a minute and we talked about both the good and the bad. The verdict is still out on if we really miss Chaz scaring us all the time. ;)
But then once again our wise 9 year old said, but I do like that Daddy gives us rides everywhere now. Then she made me laugh so hard when she said, "We get some really great parking spots now." Ryann really misses piggy back rides. But we had to remind her that even if Daddy still had his legs, piggy back rides would more than likely not be happening because she has grown so much.
I guess we're doing something right because our cuties led me back to my happy bubble. Chaz and I even told them how proud we are that they led the happy way home. I guess it's just further proof that maybe we are doing something right around here.