We returned to Maryland on Monday and we have spent this past week trying to play catch up on everything. It has been an exhausting week for all of us! Monday we said good-bye to our home in TN again. We just got here to MD and got settled back in to the apartment.
Tuesday Chaz and I jumped back in. He went to all of his appointments and I had 2-2 hour meetings that day. The girls went to Austin's Playroom, which is this amazing hourly care facility that is available to children of our wounded warriors of all branches here at Bethesda. I went to my first meeting while Chaz rolled around campus checking back in. Chaz and I met up for lunch and made some new friends. He found out Tuesday the family ski trip to Vail was a done deal, which was very exciting. After lunch Chaz grabbed the girls and went back to the apartment and I went to my other meeting. I got back, made dinner and we all crashed!
Wednesday we went to see Help Our Military Heroes award another van to another family. We love welcoming more families to our HOMH family. Then I took the girls to gymnastics while Chaz went to his computer class. We picked him up after his class and came back to the apartment. I was so beyond happy I put dinner in the crockpot that day. I did not have the energy to cook that evening, that's for sure.
Thursday Chaz spent his whole day at the hospital and the girls and I stayed home and got caught up on home school. Once Chaz got back from the hospital I went to go find some ski gear and hopefully not break the budget. I am pleased to report I found everything we need on clearance. It was really weird to see snow stuff on one aisle and bathing suits on the next. But I think I did really well for us. Chaz was even impressed! Last night we played catch up with some more of our friends. We had them over to enjoy some of my chicken parmesan and fettuccine alfredo. I love sharing great food with great people!
Today Chaz has already left for the hospital for another day of appointments. The girls and I are going to try to get next week's home school work done so we don't have to take it to Colorado with us. I am also going to hopefully get caught up of some other things myself today!
I have to admit I haven't been in the best mood this week. I think I left my heart in TN. This week I haven't left the apartment unless I had to. I really did have had a ton of things to do here, so it has kind of worked out. (Insider secret, I am also reading a really good book and I want to finish it asap.) Chaz said he wouldn't leave if he didn't have to. We are both so ready to move on with our lives, but we know we're not done here. Please don't worry, we're just in a little funk and it will pass as fast as it came. I am not one of those people who lives in denial. Instead I acknowledge the fact that not having control over our own lives really sucks. Seeing our friends here and catching up with them has made the funk go away little by little, but I think it one of those things that just needs to work it's way out. My friends keep telling me I have every right to be frustrated and pissed off. But looking back over the past year makes everything so much easier! Look at how far we have come! It is amazing!! I think it's just so hard when you can see the finish line, but you know you cannot run to it. No, in this situation you have to keep your eyes on the finish line, but walk very patiently to it. I'm sure you can understand my frustration.
I am so beyond thankful we are going skiing next week. I really do not want to be at the hospital when we hit that 1 year mark. I am so thankful that Chaz's therapist recommended us for this trip. We need to be somewhere else celebrating our 1 year together. Chaz's 1 year is this Sunday, yes this Sunday, WOW. We are going to another friend's house to celebrate very low key style with pizza and cake. Chaz and I realized we'll only be at the hospital on Monday of next week and that is great!! Chaz and I just didn't want to be at the hospital for the 25th and 26th because that when all of our real adventures started. God listened and said here go have fun and giggle it up in Colorado. A ski trip to Colorado was on our family bucket list and this is the perfect time to cross it off that list.
God never ceases to amaze me. He knows I just want to rip the band aid off and be done with all of this. He knows I don't want to be here right now. He knows I want to take my little family back to TN and move on. He knows we don't want to be at that hospital next week. Look what he gave us. He gave us these amazing people who are blessing us with a few days of fun together and away from the hospital. Once again showing all great things come in God's time and He knows what he is doing. One thing is for sure I am so glad I love flying because I have been on enough planes to last a lifetime. There's no telling how many more flights are on our path for this year. There's no telling what else this year will bring. I still can't believe what 2011 brought. One thing is for sure I am so thankful God knows exactly when to drop those great blessings into our lives.