This morning I find myself with so much to say but just not sure how to say it. My head is simply running amok with what ifs and what should we dos. The past few weeks have been full of ups and downs and then a fire. We have now found ourselves at a very difficult crossroad where we will hurt someone's feelings for sure. It is inevitable. But who do we hurt? Where can we do the least amount of collateral damage?
This past week I witnessed how the words of others can really do a lot of damage. I watched as a caregiver was attacked on a public facebook page by an unknown source. All she could do was sit there and watch as the lies appear again and again. I told her more than once to look away, but I know she didn't. I can testify on her behalf that the words spoken were all lies. Of course my words, only helped with the residual damage. The hurt that was inflicted on her will take a while to heal. However, she is loved and she will be ok. And if we ever find out who her cyber bully is then Chaz and I will pay them a visit with law enforcement accompanying us.
I myself was hurt this week by both the words being spelled out in front of me online and from a lack of communication. It has definitely been a rough week and now we sit with some incredibly hard decisions to make. Chaz and I laugh at our cheering section because they are not as nice as we are. They are calling for blood and embarrassment immediately. Chaz and I are calling for communication and peace. Our cheering section has decided we are way too nice and we have to stop thinking about others and put ourselves first. To be honest, we just don't know how to do that. I constantly find myself thinking about others and the good of the whole.
When you are faced with a decision that means you could literally crush other people, you should stop and pause. There are many decisions that I have made in the past where people needed the damage to be done. They needed to wake up and get with the program because their actions were hurting so many others. The decisions we have to face right now are similar, yet a little different, but still involve waking people up to see what they are doing to others. Dare I say it, we may be in front of one of the biggest decision of our lives. No matter which way we go, someone will have their feelings hurt. Chaz and I are already hurt over all of it. I have cried so many times now I have lost count. We should not be saddled with such an ethical and moral dilemma. However, it is the actions of others that has brought us to this point.
So what do we do? Do we sit and wait? Do we listen to the cheering section? I truly do not have the answers, but I pray I will be led to them soon.