I just wanted to put all of this out to those who care before I get a thousand texts and emails. I do not see myself online for the few days. So much has happened in the past week. I just need to take a break.
First we are fine. Losing Derek has been hard on all four of us. We have been so invested in their family since day one. My brain cannot comprehend that we won't be seeing him anymore. Team Derek was a part of our family. I do believe I am still in shock, because it just doesn't seem real. Please just know we are as good as we can be with all that has hit us recently.
The best news is that Chaz is set to be discharged from the hospital this afternoon. Everything is looking very good. He will be receiving antibiotics for eight weeks at home. This is our third discharge with a PICC line and Deryn has called dibs on it. (I think we have a nurse in the making). We are so happy for him to be coming home. Originally they thought he'd be there the rest of this week. So this news yesterday was a very bright light for us.
In other news, the girls and I are going to DC today. We were supposed to all four have been there Sunday for me to work and for Chaz to get his new legs. I delayed our trip 48 hours so we could figure everything out. Chaz is going to our home with my Mom and sister while we are gone. The girls are coming with me. Yes I have care plans for everyone. My plans would make your head spin, but the good news is I have them.
The past few days have been incredibly tough on me. I have been pulled in 46,000 directions it seems. Words cannot describe how incredibly stressful this past week has been for us. So please before you judge me for going to DC without Chaz, please know he insisted I go. And please know I have already dealt with some incredibly insensitive people the past few days who have no idea what this journey is like. Let me tell you there's nothing like someone who has no clue of what you have to deal with trying to make you feel like a bad person because you are attempting to help so many at one time. Luckily I know a few great caregivers who gave me some pep talks yesterday. I am so thankful for the ladies who know exactly what I am going through.
I am taking the girls with me because we have so many friends there who want to help us and to be honest I want them with me. I have missed them so much this past week. After what happened yesterday, Chaz is happy one of us can be there for Derek's family. It's so strange sometimes how everything works out.
Because of the recent events, I am taking a time out from the online world. I am going to get on a plane today with our girls and enjoy them. Then I am going to get to Walter Reed and help where I can.
The past week has been very hard on our girls too and they need some Mommy time. Just know that all is as good as it could be. Know that we are fine. Know that God has a plan for all of us even if it breaks out hearts every once in a while. And know you cannot have a testimony without tests. Thank you for your support and I'll update again in a few days!!
Jess,
ReplyDeleteYou do what you need to do!! No one has a right to judge you or your choices! You enjoy your mommy time, they grow up too fast!! Prayers to you and everyone else who is coping with the sudden loss of Derek!! God bless!
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I can only imagine the stresses! You are an amazing person!! You live your life to the fullest and with the most sincerity... I wouldn't listen to those who try to slow you down. Safe travels!
ReplyDeleteSafe travels to you all. Know the decisions you make are the right ones because they were yours to make. May God wrap your family in love and comfort as you venture forward.
ReplyDeleteI don't know you personally, just threw your facebook an blog...but you are amazing an give each of us strength. My family is together an we have made it threw 3 deployments an I pray that what ever more the Amy throws at us I have even half your strength an I will beable to get threw anything. Know you have many that have NO idea what your going threw but we still pray an we stand by you an your family, the ones that think they have the right to judge as much as there words might hurt be grateful you are not them because even with all your journey has given you, you are still a better person.
ReplyDeleteI still don't believe Derek's gone...
ReplyDeleteKnow that I'm always here praying so very, very hard!
Philippians 4:6-7 Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God. And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
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ReplyDeletePhilippians 4:8-9 Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things. Those things, which ye have both learned, and received, and heard, and seen in me, do: and the God of peace shall be with you.
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ReplyDeleteJohn 14:27 Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.
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Am here praying for your family!
ReplyDeleteJohn 16:33 These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.
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ReplyDeleteIsaiah 41:10, 13 Fear thou not; for I am with thee: be not dismayed; for I am thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness. (13) For I the LORD thy God will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee, Fear not; I will help thee.
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Call upon the Lord! He hears! He answers according to His Will. Praying!
ReplyDeleteLamentations 3:55-58 I called upon thy name, O LORD, out of the low dungeon. Thou hast heard my voice: hide not thine ear at my breathing, at my cry. Thou drewest near in the day that I called upon thee: thou saidst, Fear not. O Lord, thou hast pleaded the causes of my soul; thou hast redeemed my life.
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Oh what comfort these words give! The Lord knows exactly what you're going through and will be with you every moment of every day. Keep your eyes on Him! Praying!
ReplyDeleteIsaiah 49:13-16a Sing, O heavens; and be joyful, O earth; and break forth into singing, O mountains: for the LORD hath comforted his people, and will have mercy upon his afflicted. But Zion said, The LORD hath forsaken me, and my Lord hath forgotten me. Can a woman forget her sucking child, that she should not have compassion on the son of her womb? yea, they may forget, yet will I not forget thee. Behold, I have graven thee upon the palms of my hands...
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On this Good Friday we remember all that our Redeemer did for us. Because of that we have hope! Praying!
ReplyDeleteJob 19:25-27 For I know that my redeemer liveth, and that he shall stand at the latter day upon the earth: And though after my skin worms destroy this body, yet in my flesh shall I see God: Whom I shall see for myself, and mine eyes shall behold, and not another; though my reins be consumed within me.
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Vivit! He lives! We have hope because He lives! Praying!
ReplyDeleteJohn 11:25-27 Jesus said unto her, I am the resurrection, and the life: he that believeth in me, though he were dead, yet shall he live: And whosoever liveth and believeth in me shall never die. Believest thou this? She saith unto him, Yea, Lord: I believe that thou art the Christ, the Son of God, which should come into the world.
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ReplyDeletePsalms 40:1-4a I waited patiently for the LORD; and he inclined unto me, and heard my cry. He brought me up also out of an horrible pit, out of the miry clay, and set my feet upon a rock, and established my goings. And he hath put a new song in my mouth, even praise unto our God: many shall see it, and fear, and shall trust in the LORD. Blessed is that man that maketh the LORD his trust...
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