Saturday I cried three times. Why? Because reality just really sank in....some people are really selfish assholes. Sorry to type it out, but it's so very true. This reality not only popped my happy bubble, but it also shattered my heart.
I created my own little world where everyone wants to help each other and every cares for each other. In my world, everyone wants the others around them to succeed. Every once in a while someone just has to pop my bubble and remind me that it's just my inner circle that I have invested in who feels that way. There are too many people who are too focused on themselves. It truly breaks my heart. I want to believe that everyone is good and caring and wants to help others for the simple fact of helping others.
We've been working on a project for a really long time now. Our emotions have been played with again and again and again. Saturday we made the decision to just let it all go. I wouldn't say we are giving up, but for right now we are done with disappointments. The next six months we have too many exciting things going on and we are going to focus on those upcoming events. We are done with dealing with selfish people who are just looking out for themselves for a while. I allowed them into our bubble. They tricked their way in and now we are kicking them out!
Doctor it hurts when I beat my head against the wall........then don't beat your head against the wall. That's pretty much how I feel right now. And boy does my head hurt. I have sat down. I have licked my wounds. Now I am dusting myself off and moving on.
To say I am disappointed is an understatement. But I know God has a plan and it's time to step back and let things work out in his time. Let go and let God!